An Anecdote Of My Life

Peacemaker - reuang bon dtiang "เรื่องบนเตียง"

2005-10-22T03:18:00.000+08:00

Peacemaker - reuang bon dtiang

"เรื่องบนเตียง"

chao lao yung yoo bon.. tee norn

It's already daybreak and I'm still lying.. in bed.

ngiap ngiap kon dee-o yung mai yaak dteun keun pop..krai

I'm staying silent in islolation because I don't want to wake up and meet..anyone.

prow waa jai gor yung.. sia dai tee fun dee dee gum-lung ja jop lae hai bai

Because I'm still..disapointed that a good dream that was about to end had disappeared.

paap tee chun dai ben dung kon tee ter ruk chaang ben a-rai tee bra-tup jai

The image that I was the person you loved is something that I has touched my heart.

yaak seum sup naan naan lae gep wai mai hai mun paan bai

I want to savour the moment and keep it so that it won't pass me by.

yaak lup dtaa yoo yaang nun tam yoo yaang nun fun teung ter reuay bai

I want to keep my eyes closed and continue dreaming about you.

prow waa kwaam jing mai mee taang dai tam hai rao dai ruk gun woh woh

Because in reality, it is impossible for us to be together…who-oh.

tam dai kae nun tam dai kae nee tam dai piang kae fun

I can only do that much. I can only do this much. I can only dream.

dtong lok dtua eng fun bai wun wun hoh hoh

I have to lie to myself and dream from day to day hoh..hoh.

mai mee taang fun mun.. ben jing

It is impossible for the dream.. to come true.

proh mai ker-ee yoo nai... sai dtaa mai waa we-la ja naan ja paan suk tao rai

Because I've never been in…your eyes. No matter how long and how much time goes by.

took kum keun dtong ton... ngao jai mai roo jing jing tam mai tam mai dtong ruk ter

Every night I've got to withstand..the loneliness. I honestly don't know why..why I have to love you.

paap tee chun dai ben dung kon tee ter ruk chaang ben a-rai tee bra-tup jai

The image that I was the person you loved is something that I has touched my heart.

yaak seum sup naan naan lae gep wai mai hai mun paan bai

I want to savour the moment and keep it so that it won't pass me by.

yaak lup dtaa yoo yaang nun tam yoo yaang nun fun teung ter reuay bai

I want to keep my eyes closed and continue dreaming about you.

prow waa kwaam jing mai mee taang dai tam hai rao dai ruk gun woh woh

Because in reality, it is impossible for us to be together…who-oh.

tam dai kae nun tam dai kae nee tam dai piang kae fun

I can only do that much. I can only do this much. I can only dream.

dtong lok dtua eng fun bai wun wun hoh hoh

I have to lie to myself and dream from day to day hoh..hoh.

mai mee taang fun mun.. ben jing

It is impossible for the dream.. to come true.

yaak lup dtaa yoo yaang nun tam yoo yaang nun fun teung ter reuay bai

I want to keep my eyes closed and continue dreaming about you.

prow waa kwaam jing mai mee taang dai tam hai rao dai ruk gun woh woh

Because in reality, it is impossible for us to be together…who-oh.

tam dai kae nun tam dai kae nee tam dai piang kae fun

I can only do that much. I can only do this much. I can only dream.

dtong lok dtua eng fun bai wun wun hoh hoh

I have to lie to myself and dream from day to day hoh..hoh.

mai mee taang tee fun mun.. ja ben jing

It is impossible for the dream.. to come true.

how do u think of this song? =) i just came back from thailand trip. It's nice and lots of fun. i miss there and hope we will go there once again. i heard this song when i was siting alone in a pub in thailand, it gave me alot of feeling while i'm listening it so i asked one of the waitress there and they told me that this song means "You love the person but you can't take care of her". I was like "WoW", it's already suit my feeling right now. i tried to find this song when i asked one of my thai fren there but we can't find it. Suddenly last day of our trip, my thai fren gave me this CD as a gift and i'm so happy to receive it as a surprise. thanks alot for her !

anyway, there's alot of happening stuff happened in my trip and there's alot of pics too. Hope my lazyness will stop me one day to update in my blog. =D

Anyway, i will not continue my previously blog cos it's already useless now. the story already ended. =)

Hope u will like the song too..

It's killing me !

2005-10-09T07:09:00.000+08:00

"why my friend again? why not me? why have to hide feelings? till now i still cannot understand why/accept the fact that you had to test me. haven't i been like that ever since we were together?" -- I'll test you just because i need an answer for myself, i can't accept that i'll be the one who keep on having "forgive and forget" mindset. As what i said "Yes, I can definitely give you a call to inform u that I’m having OT, but in my mind, I’m always hoping that u will take the initiative, to show that u care and that u are really worried. I couldn’t stop asking myself “What place do I hold in your heart?”

why my friend again? why not me? -- I'm in the wrong at the first place to share our problems with ur frens as what u said "The biggest mistake in this relationship is to let me get too near your friends." when there's something which make me need to "forgive and forget" i will share with them because both of them understand u alot and that makes me more comfortable to share with, at least they will know how's my feeling was when something incident happened. whatever is it, I'm in the wrong to bring them into the pictures. Anyway, it's very difficult to make me speaks out all my feeling to you. etc: The ktv incident, i will not speaks out to you because i'm just waiting for the initiative movement from you whenever the problem happened, i will keep inside myself cos i'm just waiting for a words "sorry" but this seldom happened and due to how much i understand you, i will use the same old method "forgive & forget" and i will share with ur fren whenever i saw them in msn because if there's anything happen in this relationship, i hope they might let you know what kind of mistakes u have did it perviously and trying to change for the better relationship next time.

"what did i do? weren't all my sats/most of our common free time spent with you?" -- maybe those thing had already happened long ago, i will let you know if my phone have not being formatted but there's a good example for the ktv's incident. Don't always forcus those incident happened recently cos if you understand me well, i will only starts quarrel when problems and incidents came instead of just a problem/incident.

neverending misunderstandings. -- don't have any relationship will be neverending loving but there's lots of neverending misunderstanding. is it only "forgive & forget" will solve this problem? but who will be the one who will take this initiative movement? and will she/he can stand of being taking for granted always? This might be a very problematic question in my mind always.

Maybe it will makes you understand easily by this format.

What i always hoping for

she will show out her feeling always

let me know whenever she thought of me

she will show more care for my family

maybe a dinner together or accompany them to keep in e communication

she will be the one to realized whenever any changes i made

maybe another word for this is attention, important too cos she's my closest best friend too

she will not scared of saying sorry

whenever there's something happen sorry is really a magic words for everyone BUT not passed few days.

* to be continue due to working*

Lost

2005-10-08T22:18:00.000+08:00

I'm devastated. I also have no idea why things had become like this. I agree when you said that it’s really difficult to maintain a relationship when a couple cannot compromise on the form of communication used. Probably because of this we have many misunderstandings, both of us stand on our own perspective points of view. Of course, u have your own reason for doing certain things and I certainly have them too, I believe if both of us can compromise each other in the first place, things would not turn out the way it is right now.

I know that you are always online after school, waiting for me in msn. After all this while, you should roughly know what time I will be at home, but as what you said, if you are waiting for me, why is it that whenever I’m not online and have to work OT, you never call or sms me. Aren’t you the least bit worried? Perhaps you may say “I’m afraid that I might disturb you” or “why couldn’t you inform me that you are working OT?”. Yes, I can definitely give you a call to inform u that I’m having OT, but in my mind, I’m always hoping that u will take the initiative, to show that u care and that u are really worried. I couldn’t stop asking myself “What place do I hold in your heart?”

I did realize that you were crying that day and I remember asking you whether you were crying and what had happened. I admit I sounded tired that day, but that doesn’t mean that because of my deadbeat tone, you should stopped calling me. I was busy with my stuff as I need it finished by Monday. I didn’t know that you planned to accompany me on that particular Saturday. If I knew u had plans for that day, I will definitely not turn up for the chalet and accompany you instead. I can totally understand how disappointed u felt as I have gone through similar incidents before.

Even though I was very busy with work, I have no intentions of neglecting you at all. But in addition, like what I said before in the sms-es, I was also trying to see whether u will take the initiative to look for me. Didn’t realized that all this could actually caused a big quarrel. The quarrel may not be all bad as I think it helps u to understand how I felt when u treated me coolly. I know sometimes u projected your feeling in the wrong way but I think this is not our first quarrel topic. Do you remember the incident in Taka? Do you think u have changed?

I was concern; in fact, I had asked your friend how your work in Erdinger was, but because I wanted to act apathy, I had to hide my feelings. I knew you had some problems with work and that you had eye infection. I wanted to show that I care, but I also could not control the thought of not knowing anything about you again. I did ask you about your work, but you keep telling me nothing instead, so I stopped, thinking that you would rather keep it to yourself.

You dun have to apologize for anything. Everything u did was not wrong. Probably, both our expectations for the other partner are different, or maybe, our ways of showing care n concern are different. You rather keep them to yourself, but have u ever thought that without letting the other party knows how u feel, he will never know. You know, it’s also very difficult to maintain a 1-sided relationship. Since you keep everything to yourself, I could never guess everything that you are thinking. I think, without mutual understanding and commitment, it will only lead to more problems and misunderstanding.

I’m so lost; I do not know what to do now. I hope that you could give me an answer as what I should do. At least, tell me what thoughts u have or how u feel. I guess all this was caused by the lack of communication. If only we had spend more time with each other, then we will understand each other better. . .

the centr3 of Attraction

2005-09-26T23:31:00.000+08:00

hmmx.. i've being busy for my work and my personal stuff and yet i was so lazy to updated my blog since there's nothing respond from my blog. Anyway sorry mates!~ =D

Hurhur, whenever i will starts to write my blog is whenever i have some problem in my mind. hmmx.. let me just simply update my blog in points before i came to my main problems!

1) My relationship back to normal.
2) Did some mistake in my work and need to deduct my pay for the claims.
3) I'm going to thailand with my buddies next week!
4) I'm busying with those work that i shouldn't be doing right now.! all thanks to my AM~
5) I've changed~

Okie! It's time for me to talk about this main important point. . "the centr3 of Attraction"

I think those who knows me well, they should know that not much problem will cause me headache except RELATIONSHIPS.

Athought everything is back to normal and we did speaks out everything that is in our mind and she even promised me that she wanted to learn how to comit in a relationship. Ya. It's always so nice whenever after a big quarrel cos you can see your another parnter is trying to change for you but thing will went back to normal when the time is going by.

As what i said, recently I'm busying with those work that i shouldn't be doing right now. etc billing, checking all the stocks due to coming end of the year and now i need to create an ISO for my company! ISO? omg.. i think everyone will scratched their head and pity me if they understand how difficult to set up an ISO in a company.

Actually before i was busying about my work i realized alot of negetives points in my relationship and i decided to do some test on my relationship. why i need to test on a 2years relationship? cos i felt that i'm totally lonely whenever i'm busy, i need her replies, i wanted to do my stuff and i short of CARE & CONCERN.

I tried to finished my work in my weekends and sometimes after my work i still need to rush all my presentation and i've neglected her. i was waiting for her call or sms whenever i was busy and headache about my work. yaya... why shouldnt i let her know that i'm headache? being together 2years plus and i think she will knew that i don't like to do OT's in my weekend due to i'm sick in company arrangement.. =) but there's nothing for me whenever i need that. I was wondering does she thinks of me whenever she's busy or free. Since i didnt get any anything from her but sometimes i will thought of her although i'm busy, i will sms her when i'm having my lunch break or maybe toilet time! surprisely i need to wait quite a long time for a reply and the longest time is when i msged her in the morning and she replied me midnight. "Sorry i didnt see my phone." I'm sick of this sentence and whenever this msg is replied she will not replied my perviously question if i asked. Ya i know that she's lazy to reply msg or maybe she dont like to sms BUT she still sms back whenever her friend sms her. WHY ONLY ME? sometimes i'll came back late in my work maybe till midnight and i was waiting for her caring msg or call, i was thinking why cant she just sms me "how come still not home or why work till so late." In the end, nothing much for me again. I'm really sick of those insensitive act.

MY BIRTHDAY !! not a very special day for me cos i almost forgot till she asked me what i want for my present. Anyway the day before, my buddies bring me out for coffee in holland village and bought me a cake for me. although it's taste not very good but i'm pleased with the sentence from jack. He told me "We know u like to being pampered (sayang) by others so we bought this cake for you suprisingly." Everyone was so curious that who will be the first who wish me and they even took away my phone and wait for the 1st msg came. oh yah before that she called me and told me that she asked her sis to buy a cake for me and cake looks so uncle but after few mins of chatting i went back to my buddies. Oh yah, she's not the first one who wish me anyway and this crush away my expectation cos i thought she just called me and she will be waiting to wish me 1st but end up jessie (her cousin) is the 1st one to wish me and she wish me at 12.25am. I didn't show out my disappointment cos i'm really tired of this, she wish me and she laughed cos she forgot the time when she was watching a show just now. i was crying inside my heart and was laughing on the phone. She sent me a msg to wish me too and saying that she have her project to hand up so we dont have the time to celebrate but she will treat me to ktv next week. i'm quite pleased although nothing is perfect but at least she tried to pamper me by KTV! =D * i craving for my ktv for some times already just that i'm too busy and i looking towards on that day *

My weekends came and again i need to work in the morning for both days. i was totally out of my mood to work cos the day before she sms me and asking me whether i wanted to join dione to MOMO's anot, she told me that she seems no life now and she craving for this momo's club long time ago but i rejected her of not going. Why? cos she forgot my ktv AGAIN. i didnt remind her about this ktv. i met her for jessie shopping and along the shopping she told me that the momo had already cancelled. when the time we going back i'm trying to joke with her about "where's my geylang ktv?" and in another point i'm trying to hint her but i was disappointed for what she replied, she replied "you loh.. who asked you to work tomorrow." i was like ? -_- if i didnt work tml the first msg from u is still "wanna go momo tml with dione?" sometimes i prefer a "sorry i've forgotten already" rather than this reason flying around me. This is not the first time that she forgot my stuff again. WHY ME AGAIN?

That day i was working and i felt that i'm sick and i took half day leave cos i got a meeting i need to attend so i've to work till half day. i told her that my weekends burnt again and i'm sick now, i knew something is unhappy between us but i didnt asked and she didnt replied me too. i forgot what happen that day and if i'm not wrong she is waiting for me to meet her and instead of concern about my sick she expect of something and u should know what kind of feeling i get that day. On yah, although i'm sick but i still wait for her back on that day but no msg from her. don't tell me that i still need to remind her to msg me when she back home? sometimes automactic respond is great, you will like it if i did it to you too. Just few days before, she said i've changed. I'm was so disappointed cos she know i've changed but did she never give in the effort to ask why i've changed? why must i changed when the relationship already 2years plus? she just give me a replied that's make me tired and speechless. "I'm tired of talking about this, what u want to say just say dont test me." Her friend asked me to try solving this problem with her don't neglect her if the problem still hanging there and i tried to talk with her about our problem but since she tired of it what can i continue? even her friend is speechless too. Relationship is just beyond her hand, if she have the time to surf net and shop why can't she just spend some time to think of this relationship. If she really know me well, she should ask herself how come i will changed suddenly?, how come i will become so insensitive lately? how come i didnt know when she went out when i'm busy of my work? and why i will keep on working although i dont like to have my weekends burnt?. Only she can keep this relationship going, i've already tired my very best for it.

Anyway, i will wrote down here because this is my last test for this relationship. If she really care of this relationship now, she will look my blog for how i feel now. I know there's no one looking for my blog already and that's the point i wanted to see whether did she care of me and this relationship anot. I'm glad that if she look on my blog and hoping to save this relationship but if she didn't it show that i'm really nothing in her mind now.

* sorry for those anger i showed out in my msg, i can't always be the one who keep on acting infront of you, i'm a human with a feeling. i need care and concern from everyone just the same as u do. *

hao xiang pei ni yi qi shuo xia che.

2005-06-03T00:26:00.000+08:00

Just backed from my work and i walked back cos there's something on my mind i need to be alone.

Tml i was able to choose whether to work morning or evening. surprising when my boss told me that i able to choose morning and i thought of her cos we used to meet for shopping after my morning shift cos there's lots of time for me to shop and she got time to rest while i'm working.

I asked her whether she got anything program for tomorrow, if she didn't have shopping kakis and i will date her out for shopping. she scared i'm tired and i ensure her that i've already used to it so she agree to meet me. * at that moment, i was thinking whether isit she thought i will be hurt if she rejected my date *

After few minutes gone, she msged me that "why not dont't want la, i just ended my work and tomorrow ii'' be working morning. i will be tired. " i told her i won't and told her what in my mind too. After few conversations, she replied "see u tired till can't type properly le. nvm la". Guys how will you reply if u're me? i replied "okie. i won't be tired if u trust me".

She always wanted to be myself if i'm not wrong and that will be same with every girls out there. But that's real me and why she just don't accept what i'm saying? Even if i didn't meet her, i will be staying at home doing nothing or doing some OTs to waste my time although i dont like. have u ever thought of how i feel now whenever i reached home? girls and guys will always have the different thinking and if u trust me in that please take note.

Do you know what my guys asked me today?
They asked me to smile and please go back to previously i am.

Sorry guys and thanks for all the concern from you all, maybe you will be the same if u're me now but i promise i will try.

Recently all this is all in my mind flowing up and down..

Ah cole and ah meng --> Goldfish!
Paikia the laogao!!
The only tulips that looked like "Mu Tang Hua"!
The watch i bought for her near orchard point!
The Half surprise cake for her on birthday and we did quarrel and it's a misunderstanding!
Bought another watch for her in "swatch" (she told me someone thought she wearing "Fuo Zhu"!
Went to Venezia's for our ice cream. ( cookies n cream, Tiramisu and lots of).!
Merlion Park for the toliet bowl seats!
I bought her a necklace too!
Still Remember Butter Cafe? Cineleisure?
Levi's 501 Tags! ( I steal one for her too ) * Police around? *
Macdonald's at bugis.. i nv enjoyed so much in Mac before in my 21st life.
Monkey boxer !! i can't wear it cos too sexy! :D
We loves lao gao and that is what she saw on JP and i gave her as surprise!
oh ya! 2nd date at bugis and i took half day and she skip lesson .. :x
East coast park..! I love riding her around even fool with some others " uncle ".
We loves Sushi Tei !! Our fastest record of having a meal there is 30min cos they will be closing!
I like to send MMS to her too. Sometimes is whole day free!
The photo in our wallet will always be inside cos we're so happy even we are just taking photo at home! that's why i didnt change that.
Astro on our head? That's why movie first pic will be Astro boy and ger!
I loves to stay overnight at her house. cos we rock around.
Love her sleeping on my stomach and watch tv together. hot but sweet.
The day she love most "2003 Christmas day"! we didnt plan anything but we enjoyed ourselves.
She kissed me on the bridge ( she always so shy but that's is sweet and ever )
She bought a wallet for me and that's really a surprise cos i don't know where my wallet is!
Geylang Oh Jian !!!! Our Record 10 for both of us and that must thanks for my brothers!
Accompany her to her teeth clinic every appointment but too bad the day she took out i was not there! * she looks beautiful *
"Anna in kungfu land" The movie she like most if i'm not wrong cos she always gave me the pattern that is awlful for e actor but cute for her. :D
We loves "ROYCE" chocolates!
Our Chickmulk Puzzel. We did it together and that day we have a quarrel too.. thanks Chickmulk!
ASTRO ! how can i forgot him. we look around for rabbit and he's the lucky one.
ASTRO 2! Saw this soft toy at taka and bought for her . took our sweetest pic with him.
FBI clothes !! We bought two and that's our couple tee!
On Mrt gossiping with around funny things.
Her prom accessories, dress and that shoe! we travel everywhere to look for it but it's not tired, at least i made her smile happily!
Eye talk ! bought that cos it's so amazing for guys! she love trying all new stuff from jap too.!
Her birthday at ktv and that will be a surprise too!
Oh ya..! Valentine's day! Both is sweet.. 1st is on the boat and 2nd is simple and sweet.
DoDo club and missha ( dont know how to spell but she like to shop cosmectics )

There's alot more and i think i must stop before i cried out loud.
Guys! teach me how to forget when her name is pasted on my heart already?

We did so much and this is only a 1yr 9mths relationship. That's not all my effort and it's OUR effort that we did all this. There's alot of thing i would like to let her know. If there's a chance to let her accept what i am, i will let her know how i feel, how to keep this stable back, how to think of each other and what's the difference of guys and girls.

what if one day i'm gone ? if there's a feeling right now and that will be the same as me now. tears

Ps: sorry for those spelling mistakes.

Same story on the another side of my fren

2005-06-01T09:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so surprised that one of my friend/friend had the same story as me.

I was so shocked and was asking my friend what's the ending. Ya i know, different pple have their different ending too.

Their Story

Hock: My Fren. Peter: Hock/Fren Mary: Peter Gf

Peter and Mary had being together for 3yrs

Peter: Hock ah.. Telling you frankly, i was so sad now, me and mary having some problem now.

Hock: hur!? What's happening, come on don't take this as a joke. Both of you are so sweet bro.

Peter: Ya. That's what i felt too. She know a new guy that's having car and rich. I lost my confident. I love her alot and maybe Letting her go will make her happier.

Hock: Come on Peter! Ya. What u think is almost correct but it's silly too. You can't affort a car in future? Maybe u're not rich but you cannot affort her daily meals and some outing allowance?

Peter: Of cos i can, It's okie for me to work more OT just because of her. Guys need to earn for their partners, maybe that's not the rule but it's the responsible.

Hock: Well done! You know what's guy mean so why still let her go? Think about it in your heart, You let her go cos you love her, If she find someone better maybe you can "Xu Fu" her and continue waiting for her since she still havent married BUT what if she choose someone that will hurt her or maybe something bad to her? She come towards you and cry out loud? You will regret in your whole life. Do u still love her?

Peter: Of cos i do!
(Hock Asked this question to Mary too and this is what mary replied "Ya i do love him too. I'm so "Yi Yi Bu Se" now. That guy treat me so good and I still love peter.)

Hock: Okie. Whatever thing will be inside your hand so please try to settle it with her, don't push her out of your life just because you love her. She love you too and try to talk with her and work hard for your future too.

After 2weeks, Mary had understand all that peter did for her. Mary regrets of hurting peter before and she think that's stupid to let her fall in love with someone else when there's always a guy beside her, helping her along and love her so much. They went back together and they became more sweet there ever and their mind always thoughts of a words " Zhen Xi Yong You Bu Ran Huo Hui Yi Bei Zhi ".

I'm not really good in chinese so forgive me if i typed wrongly. =)

I heard this story yesterday and found out that it's quite true.

do u know i miss u alot.? did u ? * looking at astro *

Praying hard.

2005-05-31T12:08:00.000+08:00

I've made a decision, I'll leave her alone.

It's hurt but i've no choice. I don't like the feeling to become rubbish.

She keeps pushing me here and there and i'm hurts too. so i choose to leave her alone and give her "some" time. Actually this will be more painful for me. Wanna msg her but don't dare. Use to msg her but now i must keep my phone aside. looking everywhere in my rooms and thought of what we did.

Pple always " time will let you forget her easily ".
Come on.. let's face the fact, if is so easily forget her i won't be drinking all the night to let myself sleep and if it's so easily to forget i wont be thinking here and there and even dropping my tears. her everything is inside my heart.

Deep inside my heart

2005-05-30T11:51:00.000+08:00

Don't really want to sms u so often cos u're working.

Hope you can read this one day.

I was skating up the slope everyday. whenever i was skating, there will be some difficulties up there for me to get over it. Suddenly there was a snowball running towards me and knock me down the slope. it's hurt and pain but that will not stop me climbing up the slope. I need you to help me, will you? if i still breathing , i will continue up the slope no matter what.

Yesh. You will said i'm silly but i can't stop myself skating up the slope. We tried to put in alot of effort in this progress, we planned, we dicuss, we helping each other and now is time to forget it? No right? Our effort had already become loves.

We still can see the sun shining towards us, we will miss each other whenever we're lost and we still thinking of each other whenever we are lonely. Just a snowball, maybe you can blame urself now but you can't blame into the progress we went through. everyone will went on to the wrong ways, i did it too but i learned and try in this progress. while u went away, im still trying my very best to move up the slope to reach to the top of the hill. its very difficult to skate alone.. right now, i really need yer help in order to reach to the peak. i wan to SKATE wif u uphill.

i know that's the song means in your blog, ya. i cried but not because i'm hurt, is because why u're so silly. empty promises? you can't forgive urself? but why must you if i didn't blame u at all. i didn't make out some promises too.

"ive nv blame u for anyting u do... so.. pls dun blame yerself either.. datz coz... everyting, including ups n downs, help both of us to climb up the slope better"

"i dun care abt the promises... i only care abt u... n i love u"

what i want is not the word "sorry"

2005-05-30T08:25:00.001+08:00

害怕歌手: 林俊杰

我突然觉得有点怕
爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开
我们的想法落差*
我的爱是说停不能停
已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的爱未曾变成真的也没藏到多少你需要的爱
我不再去执拙我是谁
我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做
的竟还没让你相信是爱情
左右你我

而哭泣都是因为爱
也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有你
这网里我也撑着
拼了命的守着

There's a bridge hanging between a deep river. i need to walk over and get my mednicine if not i will die. but there's old man told me before "No matter how you tried to walk across this river, the bridge will breaks and it happened only you." Will you try to walk across?

For me, i will give it a try cos both ways is painful. why not give it a try and that will better than standing there to wait for the time to pass and what if the old man bluffed you? regrets after you're dealth.?

why must we leave each other when we're still in love?

我不再, 去执拙我是谁我是, 我在夜里掉的眼泪, 也可说我看不开的, 为你我能做的, 竟还没让你相信是爱情, 左右你我

Not that simple as 1 2 3

2005-05-29T19:53:00.000+08:00

How should i start my blog?

Okie.. Let me start on friday.

I didn't went to work cos Siangrui birthday and we are going to Chinablack.
It had been a long time, we didn't met together and enjoy ourselves. Ya! we enjoyed that day. We took alot of photos and i'll update it in my gallery. We talks alot of our problem that we are facing now and try not to spoil our mood by our "PROBLEMS". :D

Saturday!
It's GSS and that is what dar and me are waiting for but ended up it seems nothing much and special. A normal day will be happier than GSS. Actually i thought this week we can shop around and buy lot of stuffs but doesn't seem the same as my thoughts. Maybe dar will buy all those she want when she got her pay ba. Bought her a skirt and some of cosmetics stuff. :)had our dinner and we catch a movie after that. "Are we there yet?" hmmx.. not bad.. 4/5 stars for them. :D

Sunday!
what do you think ? :D I'm blogging now and there's no where i can blog except my house and inside my room right? :D Dar was tired so as a bf i will just let her rest at home before weekdays is coming. oh ya! Whoever read my blog, there's something i would like to tell you all. PLEASE DONT BUY BATA SHOES! omg. i bought a pair of shoe and i wore it for a week and now there's a mouth coming out from the side. Gosh! damn it.. "Buy And Throw Away"! Forver! :D

Oh ya.. I did something on my wishlist! The surprise for my dar. It's not for our anniversary and it's not for any special date. Just something that she liked and she don't wanna spend the money on it. so... I'll do the job! :D Don't really know how she felt after she saw those present but she was shocked by the dress.

My Holidays!

2005-05-24T14:16:00.000+08:00

http://www.angelfire.com/blog2/d3xy3o/Our_Story_0003.WMV

Copy and paste the address in your explorer. thanks! sorry this stupid skin don't allow link. :P

First of all, let's take a look of my new project! lol..

Actually I never did this in my life before just trying to figure it by pressing everywhere.

so how is it? great right? i know can be improve but i'm a beginner okie! :P

dar this is for you! :D

Okie.. continue my topic, i spend my holidays in shopping! lol... I started my shopping on friday cos i've asked for morning shift instead of afternoon. actually i will be getting my leave on friday but some idiot just can't stop "sabo" me so i need to take back my request and work in the morning but nvm! althought i'm tired but after 3pm i can go out for shopping! lol..

I Met dar around 5pm and we went to bugis for shopping. We left not much cash (she bought her stuff in auction and i did the same too but i bought a clothes that she likes alot for her ) so we have to do windows shopping till the next sat! (27 of may! Singapore Sales!)

I've decided what to spend on that day and i've record down what to buy and where to buy. * Sorry guys, i know i'm a guy but sometimes shopping really can release some stress/pain inside my heart. * :P

We went to breko after our shopping, reading magz with dar and having some drinks there.

The same thing happened on saturday, shopping !~

Dar went to "amore package" with carine at TYP so jessie and i will meet them at orchard.

They continue their shopping and i'll help my dar to carry all her heavy stuff if not she will not have a good shopping time with such a heavy bag. :P

We went to K box after our shopping period with carine they all and now i know why K box can be lasting cos we spend 240+ there.. woooo... *fainted*

Sunday! i woke up around 2+ after my faint yesterday lol.. we were very tired and lazy, lol.. we can't decide where to have our dinner and time files we end up at habour font coffee club express. Time is chasing us and we can decide where to go due to SINGAPORE IS DAMN SMALL! lol..

After that we met caiwei(dar sis) & her bf at secret garden. A very nice & comfort place to chill on. After few hours spending there and we decided to go home after few days home run. lol..

Monday! We intended to think of somewhere else to shop but end up at home doing my "project". Dar had to visit his uncle so we decided not to go out. Around 9pm dar and her sister accompany me to "GeK Poh" cos i've decided to do a new spect. lol..

I found 2 spect and i like their desgin. i choose the one with plastic on the both side and it cost 190 total. *fainted* lol..

Anyway, yesterday dar was asking me why i'm so moody and sad but i didn't give her an answer. she keep asking me and she was angry after that. I tried to talk with her and she cool down already, i have alot of things to discuss with her just that we don't have the chance. i just don't like to spoil our holiday/weekends mood so i kept it myself. Yesterday wanted to talk with her about it but i can't decide how to start and i even asked jessie about it. she advised me just tried to talk with her face on face and in a nice way. i told her that it's difficult and she understand that too. I'll choose a day to talk with her and i trust her and myself, that will be just a conversation not a quarrel.. :)

Not Really in a good mood.

2005-05-19T12:08:00.000+08:00

Recently i lost my mood during my work or maybe still moodless when i've reached home.

My Work ! Damn it. My work is not systematic and everyone like to work in their own way. I've received a letter from my boss, it's written that my work is not up to standard. come on! i was like F**king angry and asking myself why i need to do so much since they said my work is NOT UP TO STANDARD.

Their is rumors saying that dex had increment again, like to complains to boss and like to act boss to everyone with attitude. OMG! even one of my malaysian fren knows that i'm not this kind of person. I was totally very disappointed with my frens in SICPA. I always treat them as a team and a friend that can work with but once i've realised that all this is from "johnny". i was very upset and moodless.

Why he need to did this to me? did i owe him something in his previous life? He is doing as a part time worker and holding monthly 4k plus and yet he don't want to be responsible for eveything and throw every rubbish to me.

do you want to ask me why i don't want to quit? What i can say is Since i'm a fresh grad and I'm lucky to have a pay i am now. I'm doing well now and enough for me and my dar to spend and frankly we have a better life now. I was thinking of bear with it and stay till i get my bouns from SICPA. I wanted to go oversea on sept with dar so nvm. happy or not i must bear with it first.

how i wish i've a recorder and i can record all i wanted to say when i'm really down. I can't find anyone.

Saturday!

2005-05-08T15:35:00.000+08:00

hmmx.. we went out late and without any idea flowing in our mind so we decided to meet carine they all first for our dinner then decide together where to go.

In the end, we decided to have our dinner at Far East Plaza burger king since all the foodcourts is full of crowds and we're so hungry for food! lol..

After that, they went back for thieir hobbies. lol.. Shopping!

We went to Clark Quay and settled at "Forbidden City", a very relaxing place to chill on and the enviroment was nice but i think a dance floor will be better.. :P

12plus and we had three drunken fellows! lol.. our leader, Carine and two silly fellows Jessie and ME! lol.. everyone had their knots in their heart and i think that's why we wanted to drink, i try not to drink more cos i know my limit but just felt that drink can losen my knot..

oh ya.. i've took some photo yesterday !! haha.. carine don't allow me to post out so i'll edit it then show out in my blog next time..

okie.. got to go funan and somewhere esle with dar.. tomorrow is our 1.8mthx anniversary! nothing special? dar still rem? lol.. take care mates!

xiang nian ta.

2005-05-06T13:15:00.000+08:00

you know what?!! i was working now and it's feel so great when u no need to work and you can surf the net too. lol.. :P
production will stop for a hour cos they had some problem in the printer side.. shiok leh..
Oh ya.. come back to my topic. suddenly i miss dar alot .. this kind of feeling just the same as when we have got together recently, counting for days to meet her and hoping the msg or call will be her when my phone rang.
dar strange right? hehe.. anyway we are reaching for 1yr 8mthx already and you should know that the feeling will not be the same as last time and that's why i was so surprised that i had this honeymood period. haha..

okie lah.. i need to go back to work .. take care mates..! dar!! xiang ni leh!! ni ting jian le ma?!?! hehehe.. :P

To be continued.

2005-05-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

hmmx.. nothing happen as what i mentioned before. Met dar for dinner at jurong point only. she looks so tired today.

oh ya.. don't try the new curry taste for KFC! sucky!
can't imgining i just ate alittle bit and i threw it away .. haha..

Oh my god.. tml is another working day for me.. shit.! time flies so fast.. i've not enjoy enough! hahaha..

anyway, goodnight everyone ! hope everyone enjoyed their work! :P

yeeeeeeeeee haaaaaaaa!!

2005-05-02T02:15:00.000+08:00

At last I've released my stress of work!

The feeling for three days off is like "jumping off on bugee jump". haha.. Releasing and shiok ! lol..

Saturday

We (Me and dar) met carine and one of her friend. A very handsome and gentle guy BUT the most interesting thing about him is....... 1.9m tall !! lol... damn fa*king tall loh and I was like a tiny ants when I was standing beside him. lol..

We went to catch a movie named " Divergence ". hmmx.. I will rated 2 stars for this show! LOL..! This show is so slow and BLUR! lol.. But their acting is very good especially Aaron Kwok. For me, he act like a phyco than a police in the show. lol.. You will know what I mean if you've watched it.. :P

After that we went to BOAT QUAY! LOL... That's my home when I was young. lol.. We went to one of the KTV pub. hmmx.. a lousy place? or maybe because I used to going to K box or partyworld. hehe.. When we reached there, there was a group singing too and whenever they was playing around I thought of "That's my life when I was young and it was so fun even we don't have any cash to spend". But I know this is not the way I'm going to be. lol.. I've already over age to do that. LOL.. After the ktv, my dar and me took NR5! lol.. cos maybe dar will felt uneasy when she met those reckless taxi driver. Anyway, I've enjoyed talking on NR5 and the exercise during midnight! hehehe..

Sunday!

Just came back from K box with dar. LOL! We have not enough singing yesterday so I bought her to clementi KTV for second round! hehe.. Ya! Just both of us and this is not the first time. lol.. Although my singing is suck and I don't understand how to read Chinese but I've enjoyed the day with her. Actually was thinking asked her to stay overnight so I can wake her up to bring her for " Yam Cha ". Had a long time didn't go there for dim sum and kinda missing their food. hehe.. And the most important is I promised her to bring her there if I've the chance. hehe.. But too bad, she can't let her mum know suddenly so maybe planned for other days ba. =)

Tomorrow?

haha.. Don't have any plans for tomorrow but heard dar said that she will accompany her mum for shopping and will come my house. ooooo... What I plan? Cook for her dinner? Watch vcd with her? Play with Astro together? or doing face mask together? LOL! will updated next time if I'm free.. hehe.. :P

Oh ya .. I've upload some pictures in mypicgallery.com
After I finished uploading it, I'll show you all. :)
oh ya I haven't finish fixing my blog and my tag is gone! Hope I will try to fix some tomorrow .

have a great weekends mates !! :)

Boring !!

2005-04-20T23:52:00.000+08:00

Oooo.. I'm so tired! hehe.. Just came back from work and realized that didn't update my blog since last week and haven't finish some stuff for my blog too.. LOL! I NEED A BREAK !! :(

hmmx.. Oh ya ! I just met wenyeong recently and he let me realized of something in my mind when he was asking me for help of his relationship. This is our conversation. =)

Yong: "Why she(his gf) always like to quarrel about the same old stuff".
Me: "What's the problem now?"
Yong: "She asked me to spend more time for her but my work is so tight".
Me: " Ah... No comment".
Me: " Do you ever try to ask yourself is this your fault or her's?"
Yong: "How come you ask me in this way? I'm in the fault now?"
Me: " You won't realized your fault by yourselves. Can u see your back by yourself without a mirror? Actually this happen in my relationship before and I realized is my fault when I was looking at our photo."
Me: " Strange right? Photo can give the answer. haha.. When I look at our photo I realized that we didn't had a good laugh for a long time. Didn't really enjoy ourselves like the past and this is when I realized that I've overwork in my new job. Yah! Maybe career is important but since you're a guy u need to be responsible enough to take care ur career and ur partners in the same time. "
Yong: "ming, you changed alot."
Me: "haha. 22 but talking like uncles right? haha. Oh ya! Let me asked you a question. What she like recently?"
Yong: " hmmx.. We didn't chat for a long time. Just exchanging SMS and speaking frankly, I'm not sure."
Yong: " how come u two got so much thing to say?"
Me: "hahaha.. We didn't chat on phone too. We just SMS each other and maybe never reach 4msg per day. Maybe I'm not 100% know what she want but at least I know she crazy for cosmetics now. Why? cos I put in effort to orbserve."
Me: "haha.. Sometimes we will out of topic to talk too. Try to find some topic to talk maybe you can talk abt friends, gossip, her fav stuff or maybe lame stuff.. haha"

( When we was walking back home )
Yong :" After talking to you, I realized that maybe it's my fault."
Me: " oh.. That's good! haha.. ?*joking*
Yong:" You really changed alot and thanks for your advise. "
Me: " haha.. I didn't changed alot just that I'm getting older. haha.. yong let me tell you, if you think she's a nice girl and the girl u love most, just go ahead and try to let her know everything in your heart. I'll let yan know everything cos she's not only my girlfriend, she will be my best friend forever. Although now I can't predicts anything happen in my relationship for the past few years ahead my road BUT I told myself before, I've already strike a GOLD in our relationship."
Yong:" haha.. At last I heard this gold medal from you, you told me when you're sec 3."
Me: "hahaha.. "
Me: "last time you said that no one in this world can help me to change my betting habit right?"
Yong: "haha.. You still remember ah.. ya loh."
Me: "but how come I can change now? hehe.. Heard the song before? She's the one! " *smile*

This is our conversation, hope he will get back his relationship to the sweetest moment.. Jia You !! hehe.. hmmx.. Since nothing much for this week.. So I will end my blog here.. Boring life right? haha.. When my SATURDAY and SUNDAY will come?!?!? I miss someone ..

http://27march2005.mypicgallery.com/ <-- HOT STUFF !! hehehe..

Congratsss to Mr Tan and Mrs Tan !! hehehe..

Is there anything to let me happy about??

2005-04-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

Oh My God.. i think i've really no time for my blog..

Hopefully i will try to update my blog very week =)

this topic is very interesting. one of my team mate asked me how am i going to cool myself down when there's something happen cos he told me that i always like to jokes around and always with a smile. here is our conversation:

Me: come on! cheer up bro. anything i can help you (after i saw him throwing thing with his anger)
Him: don't know, just felt that everything gone so weird and my mind was so confused.
Me: nvm just take a big breath and blow it out in one shot. try to be alone and relax urself.
Him: how come u always so happy and seems like nothing to worry of? i'm envy of your character.
Me: haha.. come on.. why must i show out my feeling to other? why not i keep inside my heart and continue my work?
Him: I just can't keep inside. i wanna throw out my anger if i'm so confusing in mind. anyway, why u seems so happy everyday?
Me: happy? (thinking for 10min) actually i dont think i'm really happy.. just that i didn't show out. *smilex*

After my work, i realised that this question always flowing in my mind. i was thinking when is the last time i'm really happy about? Maybe i will post out if i get the answer. haha..

Oh ya ! i met wenyeong that day when i fetch my dar back home. we talk alot and we seems like had a long time didn't have a good chat. Ya i really miss him. we took some pic too.. haha..

Oh ya .. there's one of my friend just married ! CONGRATSSS !! :D

Ronald ! Must be a good husband har! :D

Okie.. think that's all.. Goodnight everyone! :D

Ps: Happy anniversary dar! :)

Good Friday?? Really ??

2005-03-24T23:17:00.000+08:00

Yeahs.. Everyone should be going out now to enjoy their "Good Friday".

And for me ? Damn it..! There's no leader for tomorrow and i was appointed to control some Jerks tomorrow. lol.. Uh har.. now you will understand what my title means har? =(

Having a fever now and It's controlled my determination for going to work tomorrow. lol.. Will i work tomorrow? I Will, if i'm feeling okay BUT if doesn't work i will just said "Sorry" and they will happily working without a leader.. lol..

Anyway, I've to go back on saturday and sunday. Omg! I'M NOT A ROBOT! Actually wanted to watch a movie with my bros and i've a long time didn't meet them since i've started this jobs But who knoes? I'm having a fever now.. Haiks.. Fated! No Pain No Gain? Ya! I feel the pain now but did i gain anything ? *geez*

Going to update some Excel documents for my job and i'll have a earlier rest for tonight. :D

Stressed !

2005-03-19T15:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my first day to be a teamleader. Topic will show how i feel and what i can said is " I CAN'T TAKE IT !" haha...

When i reached my work place yesterday, i heard alot of my bad remarks from others. Ya..! I had a early confirmation! And i was promoted now in teamleader! But this is all my boss decision and what i got now is by learning fast and try my best to get it all inside my brain within a months. I wrote down all the detail in a note book and i was learning it whenever i go to work or on the way home.. I've a very bad memory and since i can learn everything within a months i was so proud of myself.. haha..

Ya.. Come back with those old fellows! I don't understand what they all saying ( tamil and malay) but i knoe they are unhappy about my promotion and i was so fed up whenever i heard my names flying around within their mouths. I was like " Come on ! Since u dare to talk about me why can't just talk english to let me knoe what u're unhappy about me!". I was so stressed yesterday with Names Flying around, QA department don't accept our presentation and i've to look every position whether they need any help from me.. But do u think they need my help? haha.. they didn't think about it.. I called my boss yesterday, i told her that i might not take the stress now and i told her that i know everyone is unhappy about me and why not just drop my position and mayb promote me later on.. she just told me this " Don't listen to others and don't put in your heart, just continue with your works and u're working for SICPA and not for them"

Don't really know when i will drop my position, for now i must just bear with it.. everyone will have their stress in their position.. so ? forget it.. lol... ya I'm unhappy too but does they knoe?

Dar is going to choose her path for her future now.. and it's very difficult for her as in she's in dilemma. hope everything will be smooth for her and come on just give her some break! she's a human! :P yesterday something happened and i went down to wait for my friend to come and get something from me.. as i was waiting for him, i thought of alot of things and i had my mind clear.. what i do now is just follow the path and continue walking, stop thinking so far.. =)

Okie.. ended my story here.. *pray for dar and me, give us a break!*

Sparks

2005-03-18T12:34:00.000+08:00

Nahx.. I'm not going to talk about the disco "Sparks". :p

Is About my relationship.. Ya.. there's a sparks in my relationship and now i saw the flames.
Maybe i'm the one who started the flames but there's some sparks to make the flames started..
anyway, dont wish to talk abt it and i will throw away all the thoughts and happening.. just hope that we can happily together again (Waiting for her msg now)..

maybe this will be the second time that i miss her alot.. the first time is when she is away from a trip to taiwan. i was almost waiting everyday to read the letter she gave me cos she said that only a letter per day.. haha.. Isn't that cute..? till now the letter will always kept in my heart.. and now is totally different.. she didn't went to a trip but i miss her alot.. maybe the feeling of *so near yet so far*. when she's back from her trip till now she's busy of her projects and maybe that's reason i loose my mind.. didn't blame her cos i know she didn't want it too and she's a girl that not easily to take so much stress together.. * maybe a milo will kills some stress* :P

Anyway i'm just hoping everything will went fine and hoping that sat will bring her out for some relaxing.. oh ya.. the team leader position is confirm cos i saw the notice board had my name in charge of a team but no letter for me. *weird company* lol.. anyway, now is time for me to alert and try my best on my work...

anyway, would end here. going to prepare for my work..

PS: Dar.. I'm Sorry..

Promotion? Really??

2005-03-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

Ya.. Was Talking to my boss just now and she asked me to learn all the stuff in Press (The Printing side) cause she wanted to promote me as a team leader. And my team leader now will go up to Assistant Manager. Woo.. Being complains so much yet can be promoted to AM.. lol..

Can't really believe what she told me just now and I think letter is better than words coming out from her mouth, so I will wait for the letter to come asap. Actually, I was aiming for this post recently as I knew that my team leader will going to be promoted to AM soon. So when my dar went for her Thailand trip, I tried to learn more others position instead of doing my stuff on my OTs. haha.. * There's nothing can be predicted but ur future is in your hand *

anyway, hope I can have a better life now. Always hoping to have a better life for my dar and myself, can't predict anything can be happen for my relationship but no matter how I will try my best to give what I can for my love ones. :) *being together in a relationship is counted by both of us so no matter what u have, u must share with her too and that's love* As what I think car or luxury stuff is not important to me, what's important to me now is my relationship and my career. To maintain both in a same time is very difficult, I'll learn new things/way whenever every relationship I've gone through. * Nothing is difficult actually, the main consent is whether have u try ur best and put in effort in it? *

Dar had finished her assignment/projects and now she's looking forward for her coming exam. This is her last year and I hope she will get a flying colors mark for her exam. ( she will told me that she won't get a higher mark this yr but whenever her result is out, she will surprised! :P ) Since now she have some time for her to relax before her coming exam, I will try to take a day off to accompany her shopping or bring her to east coast for some riding. Recently we didn't have much time to chat/meet and I think it's time for me to accompany her for some enjoyment. Ya! I miss her a lot even we just met yesterday but there's something missing. Don't ask me what's the "something" cos I've think quite a long time but there's no answer coming out.. haha.. Maybe I keep comparing last time and now. * no matter what, life will be up and down and there will be the same for a relationship. We can't keeps comparing last time and now cos there will always some different in it* :)

okay.. It's time for me to sleep. goodnight everyone! :)

Happy Anniversary Dar !!

2005-03-08T21:22:00.000+08:00

Happy Anniversary To You Dar!! :)

Time Files and it's our 1yr 6months anniversary but too bad it's my night shift. Sorry dar.. Did tried to take leave but there's some urgent stuff that i need to be done so bear with it k ? We will celebrate it on sat k.. :)

Maybe later will bring u to have our fav ice-cream before my work, if u're free. You're so busy with your assignment recently and i've my jobs to to done but our relationship is still running smooths. Thanks for your understanding and your care in this wonderful relationship. I loves the way you treat me, the way you comfort me, the way we try to save money, the way we joking together and the way we gossiping others. haha.. thanks alot my dear!

Since we've gone through alot of things in our life and i ensure that it will have alot more to go through so dar, let's go thought together k? =)

* Falling in love with u, give me the feeling of "tong hua" *

I love you deeply!

haha.. i know that u're sick of this "tong hua" lol.. okie.. when you had finished reading this and it's time for me to continue my work .. hehe.. don't sleep too late k..

wanna to have a burger king breakfast? lol.. 7am ended my work.. hehehe..

Overall!!!

2005-03-04T01:10:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone !!
Didn't blog for so long and it's countless. lol.. Recently busying with my work, working OTs and my com had been down for a week. Oh ya ! My dar going to thailand for her school trip about a week and i'm trying to OTs everyday since she's not around and I've alot of free times. hehe.. Realised something when she's not around, Realised that Although she's my gf but she's also my buddy in my life. Whenever i realised soemthing new and i wanted to share with her and whenever i'm sad or stress of something and how i wish she's beside me. Ya! I was so sad and stress about my work recently cos i've started my shift work and i had transferred to a "Bloody Team".
"Bloody Team"? A Team without any help from others and a team without teamwork. I'm a colour matcher but whenever i work my team leader will asked me to help him do his job but this happen when my boss went off. i'm so pissed off, actually i'm willing to help them cos we are a team and yet we are short of people in this team BUT my team leader is so bossy and once i help him, he will rest in a corner doing nothing.At first i'm thinking that i'm a new guy and yet i'm here to learn and tortelate all sorts of stuff but he's taking things for granted. Thinking of helping him first and OTs for my colour matching but he told me that not to OT cos boss is not in singapore and she won't sign it BUT i realised that he told my boss that i don't want to work OT so he will do the OTs for me. will you piss off if you were me? i told my dad about it whenever i got home but i didn't received any comfort from them instead i got lesson from them, my dad keep saying that i'm easily angry and we must toterlate cos we're new and that's what i don't agree.. maybe i need to tortelate but not till this limit right?
Yeahs! My dar came back from her trip and she bought alot of stuffs there. she had enjoyed herself there but only some idiot that made her piss off too. hehe.. she bought a pillow cover for me, ciggs and a notice plate written in "love together". I like everything she bought for me. Thanks dar! Actually once u're back and that's a big present for me.. i miss u alot that week. =P
We didn't have the chance to talk much and i didn't told her all my work stuff but i did sms her when i'm down. she called back me from thailand and asked me whether i'm okie.. thanks for the effort dar.! =) she started her assignment and project the next day and till now, there's alot left. the process for the last year is so stressful and i know that my dar cannot take it sometimes. how is wish i able to help her some too, maybe she short of sleeping time and her mood is not really good but i will always be her side and understand her. dar! jia you! ni you wo !
Okie! let me talk about today! I can't stand it anymore in my work and i asked for a transfer. whenever someone pissed, the guts will increase too. i asked my boss whether you transfer me or i will resign my own. she was so surprised cos i told her what i saw and what is this team doing when she's not around. she was surprised that my team leader keep on telling him those thing that she wanted to listen but not the way we wanted to say. she will change my shift and she will asked the team leader to stop his job and help her doing some paper works. i'm glad with all her answer but who knows? maybe she just talk to me and telling me all those i wanted to listen? lol.. what come around, goes around too.. =P
Okie waiting for saturday to come cos my dar and me decide to go tamp to do her dress. hopefully she no need to go her friend house to do projects. come on .. she's not a robot in my life, she's still a human that needs a break time to relax.. okie that's all recently and ya! i bought a new com and paying installment for 2 years.. what if my boss choose me to resign today? lol.. that's why i called myself brave but it's stupid cos i didn't think whether i got the chance to continue work. hehe.. okie that's for all tonight.. goodnight everyone !!

Happy Valentine1s Day!!!

2005-02-15T01:31:00.000+08:00

hmmmx... Don't really know how to describe this year valentine's day.
hmmmx.. a budget, simple, sweet and wonderful valentine's day! ehehe...
I didn't work today cos i'm not really feeling well so i took the time to get enough of rest before i spend my valentine's day. I went to buy a "fake flower with smile" for my ah dar, we felt that it's very childish but hope this flower with smile will bring her smile back cos recently she's so stressed about his school work. =)
After this small present for her, we went out for our dinner and our movie. We tried to find a place for our dinner but there's a lot of que everywhere we go so we decided to que in "secret recipe". we waited 30min for the sit and a hour for our food (that's terrible, i almost cancel it! ) lol.. but we really enjoyed the food (maybe we're hungry) lol.. After our rushing dinner, we went for our movie "Seoul Raiders". A very nice and funny show especially Tony Leung. lol.. that's what our valentine's day ! hope ah dar will enjoyed it tonight.. sorry for the "last minutes".
Oh ya.. dar came out a saving planning for our monthly big feast. lol.. every week i need to save $30 and she will save $10 till end of the month we will take this saving to enjoy our big feast. whenever one of us birthday is coming, the other side will save double. lol.. how is it? nice? hehehe.. now is time to decide where to eat !! :P

What a New Year!!!

2005-02-11T14:08:00.000+08:00

Since I've plenty of time so thinking of updating my blog..
New song added : David Tao_Ai_Wo_Hai_Shi_Ta
So Boring recently especially yesterday, can't even find my friends to play a mahjong game. OMG! I'm going to be a deadman ! lol.. intend to play a mahjong match yesterday but in the end they cancelled cos willis frend don't want to play in LAST minute. Wenyeong wanted to play too BUT he wanted to play till 12plus and yet the time they coming here to play is 11pm, 1hr plus can play till a round? so i asked him not to come and Jimmy is rushing out to somewhere SO what i get for yesterday is ALONE! :)
How about today? Just received a call from jimmy and I'm quite surprised and thought they are coming my house since Siangrui & Willis said that they might come to my house today BUT I'm wrong, Jimmy asked me whether tonight wanna go chinablack anot?. Chiong? Come on, when will I have the mood? Is this a CNY for me? "No Ang Bao then better don't waste the time to come ?" LOL! This world is so xian shi... My Friend will always have the same thoughts, since i rejected them once and twice again they will not asked me again BUT does they understand how i feel? *Hoping for the best*
Anyway, never hoping anything now. listening my songs and watching tv to pass my time, maybe waiting for dar to wake up and go out awhile to relax myself.. lol...

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

2005-02-10T02:55:00.000+08:00

First of all, i'm so sorry that i've being a long time didn't update my blog. I'm so busy in my work recently and need to prepare for CNY!
Good News! I've being early comfirmation from my boss and little bit increase from my pay. hehe..
Actually I feel weird in this working enviroment, (simply explains) working in a company called SICPA and this company had some problem in expreience. They was tied by our "Shi Fu" (Teacher), he has alot of expreience and I don't think SICPA will work properly if "Shi Fu" is not around. He won't like to work in shift and somehow SICPA need to pay him 4k per month.
After i worked in SICPA, my boss simply likes my job attitude and maybe i learned colour matching fast. She asked me to follow "Shi Fu" in morning shift to learn more and what i realised is maybe she wanted me to learn from him everything and they can save alot in a yr.. (Should know what i mean right? :) )
I'll be working hard for this year and try to learn more from him !! :P
Okie..!! stop saying my working life !! hehe.. Yeah !! Wish all of my viewer a HAPPY NEW YEAR !!hmmx.. for me is really a new happy year.. A year that i won't be collecting ang bao! :( cos my grandma passed away this year so i won't be collecting a yr of ang bao.. hee..
Since i will not collecting angbao so i will have alot of freedom this yr, compare to last few years my CNY will be very packed. hee.. Just reached home from River Ang Bao. Went there to catch some firework with dar, carine, jessie and ahboy (wenhao). I will upload it when i'm free, it's nice and sorry if those screaming is too loud.. LOL!! After that we went to catch a movie "I do, I do". A show from jack neo and i will gave them 4/5 stars for this show. They have improved on their firming and i love the character of "Adrain Pang", It just simply acting the same role in my life.. " Maybe I'm not the perfect one in ur mind but I will always sacrifice for you." hee.. Catch this show if u're free..! :)

"A" For Angmotan, "B" For Balu Ku, "C" For C Kuay (Watermelon), "D" For D24 and what's "L" stand for ?

Lao Sai !! LOL!!!

Moody!

2005-01-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

Omg.. so many days didn't blog already cos so tired recently.
oh ya .. there's alot of thing happening in this week.. hmmx let me starts at tuesday.. =)
tuesday, a day that was so blur. =) firstly in the morning i injured my hand while doing my stuff. cramped by machine and it was so pain that even my tears is going to come out. can you feel that? =(As usual, i went to badmintion after my work and about going to finish, dar called me and she's crying.. keep asking her what's going on but she didn't want to said out so i stop my questioning and started asking her to stop crying. Till now i didn't know anything about it but no matter what i will stand by her side and that's why i asked her out to have a walk around shell ( the nearest petrol station from my house ). We saw siangrui and bert, we chatted awhile and dar feeling better too. * no matter what's happening there's sure have an answer for it *
wednesday, met siangrui for some billiard game before meeting jimmy for dinner. Did asked dar to come along cos she dont feel like staying at home but suddenly she felt uncomfortable so she stays at home to take a rest. We had KFC and in bewteen the time my dad called me and let me know there's a letter from SIA ENGINEERING COMPANY. I was so surprised but another thoughs is no much confident in that job cos heard from alot of personnel said that SIA will recuit you when they need you BUT they will simply sack you if they enough of manpower easily. oh ya.! that day i recieved a new job from agent. related to chemical but dangerous but high salary so i will thinking of trying to have an interview tml.
* will continue next time, i'm so tired.. *

My Sunday Cum Monday!

2005-01-25T13:25:00.000+08:00

nahx.. the story won't be too long this time ! don't worry.. hee..
sunday = lame-ing at home. help astro's (my rabbit!) to clean up his home and watching my lobster who's having baby now!! hee..
Monday= working is so tired, money is so difficult to earn. lol.. just came back from home, i met dar at bugis after my work, she need to find some CNY clothes but too bad she didn't catch any clothes is nice. oh ya! bought a bikini for her. LOL! so niceeeeee! suit her too. omg! cannot bring her to sentosa if not guys will come and get her no. although i'm beside. lol.. (kua chang?) hee..
So tired. going to sleep soon. oh.. i think i really can't stand myself already! i need to diet !! even asked me to try slim ten again! lol.. *if u want something that u wanted to belong to you forever, u must improve yourself no matter what!*

My Saturday!

2005-01-23T03:36:00.000+08:00

A very simple day for me. Resting at home waiting for dar to finish her assignment before going out. She finished her work at 10pm so we went out at that time, didn't blame her for spoiling my weekends cos i understand that's not she wanted too (so don't blame urself dar! :P). Next time if you have the choice to choose which poly u've to study, please don't choose NP! LOL.. So many unneccessary work and project to be done ! LOL! :P
We went to west coast for some coffee with carine, ting and mandy (wOw! i'm the only guy!), for them i'm just their sis! lol.. We chatted for 3-4 hours before we went off. Simple and nice outing! =) don't really like to chiong so much recently maybe i'm getting old! LOL.. only like to listen r&b but not in dancing.. lol..
My dar and i chatted awhile at her block downstair after the outing, we chatted awhile and i like the way we chat. Pretty sweet although it's just downstair! :P Caught wenyeong in between our conversation, didn't seen him for a long time cos he was so "busy" recently. LOL.. anyway, hope he made the right choice for his career!
Okie.. chatting with dar now and going to sleep soon.. goodnight

Black Eyes Peas - Hey MaMa

2005-01-22T01:48:00.000+08:00

LOL.. cute topic ya? =P
Just came backed from dar house, going to OG (auntie shopping center lol..) with dar, her sis(caiwei), her mum and her ahma. hee.. They went there for auntie CNY clothes and i went there to be maid. lol.. Don't mind to be maid actually, i've enjoyed myself by being a maid and helping them to take care, carry their clothes and giving them some idea. Is it what i'm trying to have? "An Anecdote life" ?? hee.. Think my dar had enjoyed by shopping with her "atm" today too. bought a bag, a shoe and some stuff for herself! omg.. when can i get back the same life as her? *waiting for this day to come* lol..
After that we went to have our dinner at queenway hawker center. A nice place to go if you don't mind of eating with lot of smokes! lol.. there's alot of store to let you choose and most of them worth it to have a try. hee.. uncle order $12 of "orh jian". omg.. that's alot! BUT we managed to finish it too. LOL.. The "orh jian" is nice there, give it a try! =) Oh ya! In between our dinner, caiwei bf (samuel) came to join us. I don't really like his attitude when he came. Not even said hello to uncle and auntie, he raise his voice towards caiwei asking her why she didn't notice his call. Come on! we are in a hawker center not inside resturant lohx, it's so noisy there and it's common sense loh! hee.. If can't find us why not move your bloody leg to search for us instead throwing any attitude to her. right? lol.. those who not agree? sorry, i'm not a "da nan ren". i will understand others before i try to put myself in. :P
Ya! after that we went home and i stay a while at dar house. notice that her new "ruo han" is going to lie down (you all should know right? :x). I try to give some advice to uncle cos last time i did learned some skill from my dad. Hope Mr. Ruo will be feel better tomorrow. LOL.. Oh.. my dar was rushing her work now. Last assignment to go! hope she can finish it by today cos tomorrow we will be going out for his CNY clothes and somehow why not finish it by now instead tomorrow still need to rush home to finish it some? hee.. Notice that her exam coming, will try not to disturb her next week cos she need to study and exam is next friday! *praying hard*
A little sad news for today! Jimmy had ended his relationship with Yvonne. Don't really know what happen to them and it was so sad to heard about it. Yvonne! Hope you won't sad about it. As what you said, there's alot of distraction in everyone life. maybe this is the time to learn it and improve it! Free can ask liyan and me out too. =) My 2nd brother siangrui also did the same thing with nicole But that's not something bad to heard about it. siangrui havent settle his thoughts why not give both of them some time to get back together somehow they are still friend too. =) who will be the next? wenyeong? me? hope is not me! =P

* Life is unpredictable, even god need to check their record before they make any discission * LOL..

First Day Of My Work !

2005-01-20T22:11:00.000+08:00

What a day for me! hmmx.. Interesting, Creative and I'm Sick! hee..
Okay let's starts with Interesting! Ya! think you must guessed right! Is about my new job!8am reached there and introduced everyone by ashesh (team leader from India!). BUT! All the long I only know remember two name. LOL.. One is Charles another one is called "shi fu" (everyone called him that cos he worked there for almost 30years! Woo!). Charles is new too and his age is 36, we chatted all the day and learned something from him but not related in the job! LOL.. "Do it when u're young orelse regret when u're old" that's what he teached me. hee.. i found it meaningful how about you? :) He worked 4-5yr in lab technician and he took his saving for some invesment but he's unlucky so he came back in technician job.he get the same pay as me and that's the reason why he keep on complaining about his pay when he started to work. (some kinda jokes way) lol..
Creative? haha.. That will related to my job I'm having now! hee..I took the whole day to do this colour matching! omg.. This really need experience! Oh yah! i found out my idol! "shi fu"..! lol.. His experience really impress me a lot. When he saw the colour, he will told you straight what colour you need to mix and the % of corrective is 90%!!.. WOW! lol...Anyway! I'm not that lousy too k! lol.. i did a lot of sample too and i did improve but some colour is so difficult for me. Example: chocolate and gray! omg!! Do you know how to make a rusty chocolate? lol..
Sick? Ya! I'm sick now. Don't know what happen just suddenly my temp go up. Took panadol just now and now trying to take a rest first. (before take a rest, chat with Dar first. hehe.. miss her a lot actually. :x she is sick too!) sehness.... Oh yah ! Today I'm sick of a person too! An attachment admin, Jasmine 23 if I'm not wrong. She keep on talking to me and i found it she's so "san ba!" joke of the day! She told me that she lives near me and when i asked her where she stays, know what she said? jurong west blk500+ OMG! What a joke right? sehness.. i just don't like her! Maybe i don't like those ger which have "san ba" attitude! hehehe...

Expression!

2005-01-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

That will be a very difficult topic upon overall.. Am i right to say that? =)
Expression? How many people think that's easy to express out their feeling? Why not we said that everyone think it's difficult to express out? =)
Blogger is for us to express out our feeling but do you think everyone will said it out truely? Even some smaller kind of feeling? I don't think so. Am i right?
although previous blog i wrote it in the way cheerful and kinda joker right? But I'm feeling so unstable now.don't really know which way is the right way to think. The feeling is not the same as other times, not "hu si ruan xiang" maybe is what the feeling i had received back. Really hope this kinda of feeling will be stop and turn back to normal just like the same as last time.
you've being cutted by the sharp curve last time, next time when you saw that again? Will you beware it or you will thought of the kind of feeling when u've being cutted? Or you will have a better way? I don't know.. :I

* Living in a dark world that no one will notice him till he have shouted out loudly *

* How's a guy spell out "prefect" in perfect way when no one is perfect in this world?*

* Missing a person is easy but indirectly hurting a person is easier *

Woo Woo.. Badmintion !!

2005-01-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

Since i've nothing to do around this time so i try to post up my picture when i was playing badmintion just now.
taken by my dad, must be he think that i've try my best to play for this match. LOL..
Actually, I didn't did my best today cos feeling sick and my leg slightly injured. I'm scared that i will injured my leg seriously and somehow tomorrow is my first day of work! yeahs! hee.. But in the end i throw myself for this "last match". lol.. good play although i lost.. LOL..
oh ya.. dar said that this skin is too "char bor". I've the same thinking too but i've no choice. All so girlish and most of them is in pinky colour. omg.. lol.. so bear with it lah hor. This is my first time to do such an advance blog. I'll learn to upgrade it often.
OH! almost forgot the last thing i wannt shout it out! I WANNA QUIT SMOKING!! lol.. actually i did tried before with dar but i think it's unsuccessful. So i wanna try one more time since i'm changing my life too. Hope my job won't let me have too much free time to smoke! hehe..
-b3d-

Usher - Yeah Yeah

2005-01-18T17:04:00.000+08:00

What a title right? lol.. like to listen this song alot but of cos i'm not talking about this song. hee..
First YEAHS! I got a job today !!! cheers !!
A colour matching technician at tuas. hmmx never heard before right? maybe some will heard of it beforebut for me? I'm still fresh! didn't realised that there's kinda of job in singapore. lol.. *turtle?*
What i need to do is to match up those colour that my client wanted to have. After i get the result of 98% matching between mine job and client sample then i will key in to the computer, therefor it will make out the amount that my client booked from us. That's what my job is ... interesting.. ?? lol.. pink = ?? 80% red and 20% white?? lol... :P
Actually I was hoping for this job quite a long time. They keep on dragging the time, always listen the same old words "We will call you again" omg.. lol.. At last! after 2nd interview, before i going for other interview this morning they called me and asked me down to sign agreement contract.. lol.. * Yeahs Yeahs ~~*
Second YEAHS! I've finished my blog !! hee.. having some difficulties but at last! hee..
Dar knew about my job BUT she doesn't know that i'm starting to write a blog too. lol.. Will give her a surprise then. hee..
Recently, she was busy with her essay (omg! late for almost 2wks? LOL). Hope she will finish it asap and have a good rest after that. Don't like to see her so tired and stressful.
Anyway i've a question for my friends. "How to show out your feeling to others? whenever you're angry? sad? or maybe jealous?" for guys is so difficult! LOL
* please forgive any spelling mistake due to learning in progress * :P

Yeahs!!

2005-01-18T01:31:00.000+08:00

Yeahs! at last i did my first blog! hee.. Actually i did wrote some last time BUT why still thinking of the past? come on is 2005 already right! :P
Yesh! As what my title wrote! "An Anecdote Of My Life".
That's what i going to be for my 2005 ! Actually I was hoping for this dream a long time ago.Hoping to be simple in my life. hmmmxx... kinda like having a job, a dog for me to accompany with, accompany with my dar, some sports activities like badmintion or swimming and accompany with my parents. isn't it simple and relaxing? hee..
Are you thinking a simple life is so easily to get it? nahx.! It's difficult ! :( ( but i will do my best for my dreams! ) :P
First i gonna change my thinking, i like to compare with others and that's what i dont like too.although it can improve myself while challanging others but once yours determination is high ur bad habit will increase too! why need to rush yourself and giving yourself more burden right? :P
About gambling soccer? I used to be a punter ( simple and a nice name for soccer gambler! lol ). I like to predicit soccer whenever i get it right i will be proud of myself but that's end up in gambling. I quit this habit since i having some problem with my dar and having some problem in financial.
As what i said? why having a life keep on thinking about soccer, thinking about how to win some cash and looking for the odds? why not when u're free, having some drinks with your friend and watch some matches.? relaxing right? lol.. * Soccer is for you to invest but not for you to earn cash while you no need to work *